Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Man, that's annoying!
*start vent* Since changing laptops I can't seem to leave blog comments anymore on other blogs. And boy, is that annoying! Once I finally get past the word verification, then it denies my password. If I try to leave a comment as anonymous, it starts the word verification loop again. I give up. *end vent* So, my little chickadees. In case you were wondering, I have not offed myself in a desperate attempt to get out of work assignments. There would be no point. My minds eye conjurs a picture of co-workers peering down the hole at the casket and sobbing quietly, wishing they had asked me just one more time how to archive their email. Or that they had sent me a request the week before and I had gotten to it before leaving the mortal coil. Then somebody would notice the dessert table and say "oooh, timbits" and they would all forget I existed. Until something broke, then they would curse my name. Thanks to a slower laptop and a lot more waiting and not being able to multi-task as well as before, my mittens are done and have thumbs. No pictures, because I have taken my last picture with that damn camera. If you try to get close at all to anything the image ends up blurry. I have decided to get myself a NEW camera. One that has some sort of actual (not digital) zoom so I can take close ups of things like mittens and not get all flustrated when the picture does not turn out. We have another camera. Our "family" camera. But that is the one DH uses to take pictures at holidays and events. We cannot share a camera. Lord forbid I change a setting, his world would turn upside down. We found out long ago, when it comes to cameras and computers, we are better off having our own (or our own profiles). So. How is work going, you ask? Dinner was peanut butter eaten with a spoon, with an ice cream chaser. What does that tell you. DD was making me nuts so I made arrangements with one of her friends for dinner and some play time today so I could finish a few things. I know I have been working too much lately, but I don't know what to do about it. I can't just get another job right now. To do something in my field is just trading crap I know for crap I have to learn, with starting pay and no seniority to boot. To change careers? Well, right now there isn't a whole heck of a lot locally. We are the "automotive capital of Ontario". The "Big Three" and feeder plants for parts and services employee most of the workforce here. And right now, there are more plant closings and layoffs than open jobs. The first quarter of the year is always tight, nobody is hiring right now. I even heard the fast food places are laying off! So for now, I am stuck. My therapist said to do the best I can, get what I can done in a reasonable amount of hours that I am paid for, and let the rest go until the next day. Don't obsess, don't fret and worry. Easy for him to say, he is making 125 an hour and he knows I am coming back next week. Heck, he can go ahead and remortgage based on me alone. Yet I do agree, that I cannot go on like I am. On a very serious note, I am starting to get that feeling of wanting to go to sleep and not wake up so I don't have to deal with it anymore. It's a pretty scary feeling, and I am smart enough to know a huge warning sign when I see it. Starting next week, I am working EIGHT hours per day total and that is it. What gets done gets done, what does not just waits. And if that is a problem, I will direct them to my manager and see what happens. I can't keep going like this. In other news, it is harder than you think to create knitted/crocheted clothes for a baby alive doll, in case you were wondering. Her chest is only 10.5 inches around, but head is enormous. No pullover sweaters for this babe, it has to be cardigan all the way. Jumper dresses that have buttoned straps would be okay, but the straps have to be so narrow because of her big neck and her arms are huge compared to her chest circumferance. I can't find any patterns on the net that take into account the narrow chest and big head and long body and husky arms so I am trying to come up with something myself. Thank goodness it is for easter gifts (DD and my one niece both have the dolls), I am going to need that lead time to figure it all out! I started a swatch of seed stitch while waiting for DD to come out of school. My one idea was a baby doll type dress that had seed stitch around the chest to the waist, and a sort of ruffle-y skirt and diaper cover. Add some little socks with a ruffle around the ankle and Bob's your uncle. Only, ask Bob if he can go ahead and write a pattern for me, kay? Another idea is a simple onesie type thing that buttons over the shoulders. Picture the mother of all wedgies, with the undies making it up to and being pinned together at the shoulders with buttons. Basically a knitted tube with leg holes at the bottom and tabs with buttons at the top. I have a simple duckie and bunny outline that can be duplicate stitched or knitted right into the front. Some bunny slippers and maybe a hat with bunny ears, and there we have it. Nothing says Easter quite like a onesie with a duckie on it, and socks with bunny ears on them. No hooded sweaters or wraps, because her head is too freaking big. And if I have time, some washable bibs.